Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

I did not know this page exsisted until the other day and could not resist reading all the reflections. Looking at your picture brings back such memories both happy and sad. I can not believe it has been 12 years since you left an empty place in so many lives. You were such a very loving person. I still to this day do not understand why all the good ones are taken, but I guess God takes the best! Your love and tenderness will always be cherished! You have made an impact in so many lives.

Anonymous

September 13, 2010

Rough couple days...could use some strength sent my way. Had another funeral dream. Those always shake me for days. Thank GOD I have all my survivor COPS friends who I love dearly. I'm getting ready to go to spouses weekend in St. Louis so I can see them. That is always so healing!

Laura

September 4, 2010

I found something of yours the other day that I thought was gone forever. I'm so happy!! It's funny how timing is always perfect. :)

Laura

August 6, 2010

I'm so sad. we lost 2 tampa fl ofcs yesterday and i'm sad for their families, i'm sad for all the survivors i know and i'm sad for me. sad we know this pain. the pain that will never end. it's always here allen. it has never left. sometimes when i think i'm strong BAM it hits me all over again, especially when i hear another officer has been killed. i relive my own pain. those first hours. screaming, begging God not to take you when i knew in my heart you were alreay gone. i remember when they told me you had been shot i ran toward the door to come to you, they held me, they told me you were already dead. i fell to the floor and just screamed. screamed...screamed for you. screamed no. prayed to God it was a nightmare and i'd wake up. i needed you. u left me. i didn't understand. how could this have happened. just more than one person can comprehend. my heart is breaking. please send strength to me. i need it. love you

Laura

June 30, 2010

Just got back from DC for National Police Week. Bo went with me this year. He's such a good officer. I'm so proud of him!! We really enjoyed visiting the wall and leaving you some things. I loved seeing all the survivors I've known for so many years and new ones I've met recently. There is a strong bond between us I have never felt before. Anyway, hope we made you proud! Love & miss you!!

Laura

May 19, 2010

Happy Cinco de Mayo! I had Mexican for you today (yesterday too!) I remember how u used to love to go eat Mexican. Anyway, today is better hopefully I will get stronger ever day. It's been a rough couple weeks. :( oh by the way, did u like your birthday balloons? Hope they made it to you okay and the note was still attached. Miss and love u!

Laura

May 5, 2010

Happy Birthday to YOU! Happy Birthday to YOU! Happy Birthday to my Angel Allen....Happy 38th Birthday to YOU!!!! I know you are celebrating your birthday in Heaven today. Just know we love and miss you everyday. I have a candle lit in your memory at the police department (along with your pics, flag, etc.) and I will send your balloons up to you later today so be looking for them. :)

Laura

May 4, 2010

Know that you aren't forgotten and I still think about you often. The memories we shared will never be forgotten. It's hard to believe it's been 12 years since your death, and I'll never forget that day. It's assuring to know that when I strap on that vest and place the badge upon my chest you are with me to help keep me safe.
The "Swat Pup"

Bo

April 26, 2010

We dedicated our shift to you on the 12th anniversary of your passing. R.I.P. brother, we have the watch.

LEO
RPD

April 25, 2010

12 years ago today. Thank you Allen for your service. R.I.P. Brother

W.A.Beasley Deputy/Retired
Chesterfield Sheriff's Office, Chesterfield, Va.

April 25, 2010

A Police Officer's Wife

I cannot believe this day has come
only two short years we've overcome.
Please dry your tears my loving bride
for I will still be right by your side.

I know you're young, but you must be strong.
And don't worry, for we won't be apart long.
I can't wait to see your beautiful face
and show you this glorious place.

The flag today they will hand to you.
They will dry your tears and salute you, too.
Sorry I didn't get to say goodbye,
you know I loved you, you know I tried.

My job called and I had to go
I just wished that you could know.
As I lay dying, I wasn't sad
for I saw God and he held my hand.

Now when times get hard,
hold your head up high.
If you feel you need to see me,
just look toward the sky.

Until we meet again on Heaven's bright shore,
I just have to tell you once more.
Remember Sweetheart, make the most of your life-
for you will always be a
Police Officer's Wife!

By
Laura Gibson-Szerokman
This poem was written by me about a month after Allen was killed. I was sitting at work and the words came to me so plainly and quickly that i remember grabbing a pen and writting as fast as I could. I believe he spoke these words directly to me and I hope you enjoy them as much as I did.

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and may not be duplicated without permission

Laura

April 25, 2010

I could REALLY use some extra strength this week so please send some down my way. I'm trying to be strong but it's hitting me really hard this year. :(

Laura

April 19, 2010

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye?
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

Laura

March 24, 2010

just thinking about you and laughing at some of funny stories i remember. good times...

Laura

January 7, 2010

Due to unfortunate circumstances, you have four new angels in Heaven today helping you guard the gate ;). I know you, as well as all the others, were there to welcome them home. Please send some extra strength down to all the survivors today. I pray for strength and peace for those that became survivors yesterday and the ones that are reliving their own loss because the pain never goes away. i love you....

Laura
spouse

November 30, 2009

Your mom and I talked for a couple hours last night. You are still missed so much by so many people. Your memory lives on in our hearts every single day.

Laura

October 12, 2009

Hey daddy its been awhile since my last reflection but I think about you everyday. I am 31 weeks along now and I'm having a girl. We have the nursery pretty much finished, and it is so beautiful. We put my lamb chop lamp in there that you got me and my minnie mouse clock too. I am so excited about being a mommy, but I am nervous too. But I know that I will raise her right because I am going to raise her just like you raised me. I'm goin to teach her to be a lady just like you taught me. I wish that you were here to take all of this in with us, but I know that you are looking down on us and smiling. I will make sure that Isabella knows everything about her papaw and what a wonderful man and father he was. Every night before we go to bed me and Rodney will lay down and talk to her and then we will put my cell phone on my belly and play "Love of My Life" (mine and your song) and she will start kicking like crazy; its so neat.
Everyone is doing really good and they miss you very much and can't wait to see you again. Kristopher and Allen are getting so big, and everyone says that they remind them of you and uncle Doug when you all were there ages. We all are staying busy trying to get ready for the baby shower. I know that you will be there in all of our hearts.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH DADDY!!!
and no matter how old I get; I will always be your little princess...

Crissana Gibson Summers
Daughter

August 19, 2009

Today's been a hard day. Grief has a mind of it's own. It's frustrating b/c you are going alone in life just fine - or so you think - and then all of a sudden BAM a bad day hits you out of nowhere. Tomorrow will be better....

Laura

August 17, 2009

Your beloved wife's poem really struck me, having recently been lucky enough to come home after something similar to your tragic incident happend to me. My prayers will be with your family. Rest easy we have the watch from here with you and all the other heros by our sides.

NJ officer

June 3, 2009

happy birthday... you would have been 37 today. :-(

Laura

May 4, 2009

Allen, I am also remembering that the 25th in almost here. It's still hard to believe even after 11 years. Like Crissana, my faith lets me know you are in a far better place. I was thrilled when your Mom told me Crissana's good news. She is in my prayers. See you later . . .

Pam

Pamela D. Diehl
Former Co-worker and Friend

April 20, 2009

It has been a while since the last time that I left a reflection and I'm sorry it took so long. Things have been good and everyone misses you so very much. This coming Saturday is the 25th and it will be a hard day to get through. I think about you every second of everyday and I miss seeing you, but I know that you are in a much better place and that you are watching over us all. Everyone is doing really good. Rodney wanted me to let you know that even though he never got to meet you he loves you so much and he is so happy to call you his father-in-law. He takes such good care of me and he loves me so much. At our wedding he said that the only way it would be complete was to have a photo of you sitting right beside us and to have a candle lit in your memory. I know that you already know this stuff but I still like to tell you about it. I also want to tell you congradulations on being a papaw!!! I am almost 14 weeks along and we are so excited. If we hava a little boy we are going to name him Allen James, after you and Rodney's dad; and if we have a girl we are going to name her Issabella Shaye. I wish that you were here to see all of the great things that are happening but I know that you are watching from above. I love you so so much daddy and I always will, and don't worry, I will ALWAYS BE YOUR LITTLE PRINCESS!!!! I love you and like we would always say, I will 1025 you again. I love you daddy

Crissana Gibson Summers
Daughter

April 19, 2009

I LOVE AND MISS YOU DADDY.. I'LL ALWAYS BE YOUR LITTLE PRINCESS!!!

Crissana Gibson Summers
Daughter

March 22, 2008

I hope you have a wonderful Easter in Heaven. I'm sure the celebration up there has nothing to do with eggs and the easter bunny...it's all about CHRIST! (That's the way it should be down here too!!!) Enjoy the celebration!!!

Laura

March 21, 2008

Hey I know you of all people would think its corney for me to write you on this stupid computer but just wanted you to know you was a great friend a great cop just good and there isn't a day I don't think of you or Dad tell him I said hi.And take care....:(

Kenneth Russell
Bother-in-law and He was my partner at Waverly PD.

February 28, 2008